i'm high... Opiate courage. cody and david are both gonna hurt me for that one. ~shrug~ it's been awhile atleast, and i was bored. i know, wrong reasons.. bite me... as sick as it sounds, i wish i had more then the last dose. thats scarey, but i do enjoy it. addiction is a bitch.
Now i kinda know what Fiona was going through. I kinda wonder how shes doing...

well, that went well i guess. david sent me some good shit, and helped lots. i couldn't believe i was that freaking blinded by my ambitions. he was right... i should be glad that i have such a great friend as kelly. i no longer have to worry about my concern with freaking her out by showing her the notebook, or using those "three little words." now, i'm not saying i'm gonna give up or anything, but i'm gonna be as passive with her as i am with everyone else when it comes to that topic. God willing... i mean shit, we all know that i've never dated anyone (which i blame on my knack for bad timing), and am in no hurry to get caught up in certain shit due to more important things, like school and attempting to leave a legacy of my own (R.I.P. Hubie.) according to the b-day book kelly and i were looking at oneday, i should look for a pisces. anyone know any that are availble? i also had a revalation yesterday at Kellys. i will never make her as happy as her roommate does, and i don't think anyone in the world could either. that brought me down a bit, but it also made me smile. the way they wrestle around, and shit. it's like two puppies or kittens. it must be great to have friends like that.

between both david and cody, it's been easier the last week or two. various emails, im convos, and such things... i think alot was tossed around, and is better now. as cryptic as that sounds... like i stated in an old notebook entry, i'm glad i've been able to get to know david as much as i have the last month. only took three years, lol. bah... whats done is done. I owe'm both big time, whether they see, or even accept it.

what else, what else... picked up some new cds, and the third disc to lain. yay! i spent way to damn much, and they didn't even have all the lain i needed. 'least i've only gotta find one more now. i wish i knew of more good music. i'm kind of in a rut. Aside from a few nin imports, and a few jokers cards, i don't really have any albums to chase. picked up the last two switchblade albums that i didn't have, as well as the only dope one i was missing. i mean, maybe pick up incubus' s.c.i.e.n.c.e., but thats about it aside from hard to find albums taht i'll most likely have to order over the net, and i'm not fond of that idea. if any of the three people taht read this know of any music that i might like, lemme know... please? i'm lookin' at you cody/david...

also, i'm trying to think of a cool way to close these entries out. i don't wanna do teh quote thing like in the notebook, as there is no way i could think of one twice as pften as i had to without overusing some of them. they would have to be realvent after all.

until i get ,y comment/feedback stuff working, stick any suggestions you have into an email, or the tagboard over to thy right. shit, it's there for a reason, use the damn thing!

oh... also, one more poll quicklike... do you think i should show kelly the notebook, or atleast send her the address to this? i mean, i'd like'er to see some of this at least, or am i jus' attempting to go back into the void? david... once again, i'm looking at you.

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